Date : Monday, May 24, 2010
Time : 4:28 AM
Title : critical

I don't know what's happening in the world now. It seems like every single thing that is happening is affecting me. Sometimes you did something wrong, NOT ON PURPOSE. What can you do? What, create a time machine and rewind back to make amendments? No please. Whatever you did, will not change. I admit that I'm someone who runs away from reality when I make mistakes. The thought of being blamed or being punished etc is not something that one might not be able to tolerate. The only thing you can do is to face up and say you regretted. What else can you do? Commit suicide? That came into my mind before. BUT THINK. What will you benefit by killing yourself? Well, the only benefit is that you end your life and let your family clear up the mess for you that YOU'VE DONE. Is it fair? NO. When feel very upset, definitely feel like dying and I believe that many of us had thought of dying. I have many friends who tells me that they wanna die, they're not happy with their lives now. They hate everything.
Another thing, relationships. WA this is a killer man. You might be having a boyfriend/girlfriend and you're jealous. Come on, It's something very very common but people just solve it in a very difficult way. I don't understand why but yet I understand how it feels to be jealous. Not that I was once jealous but I know how it feels by the way how my friends tells me how they feel. Every single thing they tell me, very detailed and the tone that they speak. It's very obvious. This is something which is very difficult to hide. I'm now the middle of EVERYTHING. It's like I was the one who caused more problems, more misunderstandings. I'm being sandwiched. Really. And it's really hard to solve many problems at a go and I know that there will be more coming SOON.
Whenever I say something positive, you will response with something negative. If this continue, what am I suppose to do? Response with another positive reply and let all this nonsense carry on?
Your will not realise how stupid we were until all this damn thing stops. When there's an easier way to solve the problem, your don't want to. You just chose to end it with torture.
I just want every single problem to end damn quickly because I'm being sandwiched and this is something I really really cannot stand it because I don't like to lie. Who does? And I don't want any r/s or friendship to turn into a disaster because of ME. I will never ever want that or even let that kind of thing to happen. I.WILL.NOT.LET.IT.HAPPEN. I.WILL.DO.WHATEVER.IT.TAKES.TO.CHANGE.EVERYTHING.FOR.THE.BETTER. I will.

Date : Sunday, May 23, 2010
Time : 2:16 AM
Title :

Date : Tuesday, May 18, 2010
Time : 11:01 PM
Title : empty

Finally, today's the last day for post exam activities. Gonna get back our papers tomorrow and Friday, I don't want to get back my papers because I know I will see lousy results. Every single time I saw Mdm Chin, I would ask her about my Amath results and she will just say ' Don't talk about it'. So obvious my marks is cmi alr lo. Good lo.
I bet MumDad's gonna be damn upset about my results, I've not been putting in effort.
Anwh0w! Watched Series Of Unfortunate Events in the morning. Then cleaned our classrooms before going for recess. After recess, we had some leadership programme and Brandon gave us us his book. He wrote it. The book's called house of the song. I manage to read a little bit when I'm on my way home. Very simple english, everybody should be able to understand.
It's about friendship, relationships, life etc. After leadership programme hanged around at void deck for a lil while with xuan they'll then left for home when they need to get ready for CCA. If only CO have cca today): I haven't even practiced the pieces for the music camp yet, I'm amazing.
ooooooh, I'm getting hungry now. But there's no food in the house so I guess I'm gonna skip lunch, woooo.

Date :
Time : 1:09 AM
Title : out with it

Today's boring. Only had life skills programme and a presentation @ the hall. I rather have lessons, really.
I'm home early today, came back home right after presentation cause nothing to do alr plus we're not hungry so didn't have lunch with cliques.
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You will only get to know what the person is really thinking or how they feel about you when you know them for a long time. Be it friends, relatives or teachers.
I wasn't really listening to what J was saying but cliques told me that J actually kinda insulted us and looked down on us NA students. I have to admit that we really made you angry because of our lousy behaviour. But sometimes your words really can insult and hurt someone. We are humans too, we have feelings. We have emotions. I always thought that you're different, but I guess I'm wrong.
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Can't wait for music camp!! First practice will be coming monday, so I guess I'm gonna meet up with Shimin and Hsien Hean if they have practice on monday too. WOOHOO, guess I'm gonna be to worst cellist there. NICE.

Date : Monday, May 17, 2010
Time : 5:28 AM
Title : waiting

I am bored and so I'm now here blogging, again. Actually I needa start doing my undone english work but maybe I'll just do it later, HAHA.
Anyhow! I guess most of you watch clicknetwork.tv videos right? If you don't, go check it out NOW.
Click here to watch the video.

You'll get to know what happened during the poker party after watching the video.


Click here to see Tammy's entry regarding this whole thing.

K la, I think I really needa start on my english alr, or else I'll fail badly for it.

Date :
Time : 12:59 AM
Title : fun and surprise!

Went to TP on Saturday, damn fun but keep sweating cause it's super hot there. Like you just come out from your room then you start to sweat already.
Took some pictures, I'll try to upload it up k. I still remember about the photoshoot, just that I'm too lazy to upload it up, next time.
Anw, Sezairi Sezali came to school today for the performance thing. He sang a few songs for us. Well, I dont catch Singapore Idol so idk much about him. But his singing's really good.
K, not planning to blog much, so gonna stop now.
gonna catch PS man and pandaman now, BYE.

Date : Thursday, May 13, 2010
Time : 7:54 AM
Title : fear's coming

It's 10:55PM now, so gonna sleep after I blog. Not gonna blog much anyway.
First, I want to say is.. EXAM IS FINALLY OVER. Okay i know everyone's blogging about that but so what?! I'm happy, you're happy, everyone's happy. K, I'm going mad again.
I really shouldn't have gone to school today): Should have stayed at home. But I'm still going to school tomorrow, I'm going for the sake of going. Does that sound right? Yeah, I think so huh.
Going to the museum tomorrow then the sexuality talk. Damn siannnnnnnnnnnnnn.
Today, after school went to lot1 with Wy and Jack then checked movie time but too late so didn't watch any movies, went home instead.
Went to church @ 7:15PM. Just reach home bout an hour ago.
Okay, I'm going to sleep NOW. YEAH NOW
SO BYE.
BYEBYEBYE.
YA BYE?!
Okay, bye.

Date : Monday, May 10, 2010
Time : 1:00 AM
Title : less

Had Emath and Mother Tongue Oral today. Math paper was okay, just that I didn't know how to do question 14 and 15. 90% of the NA students dk how to do, HAH.
Did badly for MT oral. The teacher keep asking if there's anything else to say then I said no cause I really don't know how to elaborate more using chinese. Then she just look at me and then ask me another question, guess she's trying to pull up my marks?? This shows how lousy I am in chinese.
Jack said Ms Shan told him Ashraf failed his history. If he fail I think most of us is fail BADLY. He's been the few tops in our class and..... He did badly for the paper. So how bout us?! WORST.
Tomorrow's Amath and SS. I'm prepared to fail my Amath but I'm not prepared to face all the Amath questions tomorrow, you get what I mean?! I'm gonna study hard for SS, don't wanna drop my grades. For Amath, always been failing/border line, so I won't drop HAHA.
Gonna start studying now.
Bye dudes&babes.

Date : Thursday, May 06, 2010
Time : 1:27 AM
Title : drop

I did my english paper BADLY. I think I make damn lots of mistakes. After I pass up my paper, I suddenly remembered that I wrote dissapear instead of disappear. Damn, one mark gone. GONE):
For paper1, big big mistake. I really don't know what's wrong with me today, dk what's wrong with my eyes. It's either I didn't see the question or I see the question wrongly. For section 1, I wrote about number 4. But on the foolscap I wrote number 5 and I only realised that during recess when Shavon and cliques told me that the one I did was number 4 not 5. But manage to change the number because a kind teacher allowed me(: I forgot his name, oops. THANKS YO! But so what la, I made a lot of mistakes in section 2 as well as paper2. Gone case. But not so bad as Jonathan, Jon's much more blur than me. Good luck to you, Jon.
After paper2 went to blk1 for something then off to lot1 with Wy, Von and Jack for lunch. Dk why I so damn thirsty. I bought noodles soup, then Ribena. After that still damn thirsty I went down to basement to get Almond Soymilk. BUT STILL THIRSTY, seriously what's wrong with me la): I'm abnormal D:
After that came home, Drank one whole cup of water and now I'm thirsty again. GREAT
I have nothing to blog now, I'm boring, I know.
so bye.

Date : Wednesday, May 05, 2010
Time : 3:20 AM
Title : come on

I'm blogging, watching 'The Little Nyonya'"and having snacks with Dad at the same time. Say I'm cool.
I felt much better today, at least better than yesterday.
Tomorrow's english exam and I've yet to memorise the format for letter writing. Something special for this year, we're having our exams in the hall with the other classes, together. Can't wait, but i guess the hall's gonna be damn hot and stuffy. Alright, stop talking about exams. It'll only remind me to memorise the letter writing format. K whatever, I'm holding on to the format worksheet now. Because Wengyi needs it and I have to tell her the format. Another reason to say that I'm sucha good friend, YEAH! :D And instead of typing to her in msn, I typed in Microsoft Words so it'll be easier for her to read. For that, give me a bonus mark, HAHA.
Here's prove:

Genevieve says:
ok,
i type in microsoft word then send you the file so easier for you to see, k?
WENGYI says:
sure
kay
thankyou
Genevieve says:
do you love me?
WENGYI says:
huh?
of cos i do lah!
Genevieve says:
OH YES, i'm gonna blog that.
:D


K, what's wrong with me?! I think if I carry on being like this, I will soon be asking everybody 'Do you love me?' and of course all will say YES! You dare say no?! HAHA
ohhhhhh k, back to reality girl.
Had lessons until 4pm then went home alr. Chemistry was boring, AS USUAL. I don't understand anything because I don't concentrate in class and I'm not interested in chemistry, at all. I think MinRu's the only person who can teach me chem, and no other. For physics.. I know a little and I can ask Jack for help since he once told me that he became very interested in physics.
For MYE, I think I only need to worry for Science, Amath and of course my chinese! I think the teacher's gonna stare at me during chinese oral exam wondering if i really am a chinese student or not. Plus I don't think I really look like a chinese anyway, People even said they thought I'm malay, great.
I'm really not interested in Science, except for Bio? But sadly my batch NAs are all having Physics, no bio class. For Amath, was very excited about it when I was in sec2. But I kinda of lost interest in it due to Mdm Chin's short cuts. No use teaching us the short cuts when we don't even know the basics and so I hope Teacher Priscilla (I hope i spelt it correctly) will make me love Amath again. I doubt I can rely on Mdm Chin now.. HAI.
Chinese.. Don't talk about it.
It's getting late, I needa go bathe now then memorise the formats.
Wish me good luck for tomorrow(:

Get a life, girl.

Date : Tuesday, May 04, 2010
Time : 2:34 AM
Title : unwell

I KNOW I'M SLOW BUT THIS MOVIE SERIOUSLY ROCKS MY LIFE.

Date : Monday, May 03, 2010
Time : 4:03 AM
Title : interesting

School-less today, YAY.
Morning woke up, used computer. Watched PS man episode 10, cool ttm.
@ 12pm got ready then left house to meet study partners. Had lunch @ lot then went over to limbang's mac to study. Studied Chem and Amath. Mostly chem actually. In the end we chit chatted bout our haunted school etc.
left mac @ 5plus then went back to lot. Walked around awhile then went home.
Today's boring, actually?


I wish you well.
For your girl, live on.
For your family, live on.
For your friends, live on.
50-50 are just numbers to you.
Believe in yourself(:



[Edited]
I feel pathetic. I only blogged 42 entries this year):

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